Mad Frustration and Also, Fun?
In the past when I would get frustrated because a painting didn’t work out it would completely dismantle any motivation I had for art. It would be a defeat that would add yet more bricks to the wall. This time though, it was just a failed painting and I just wanted to try going a different direction. Not everything is going to work. Some things may work well and then get ruined because of impatience or because I just wanted to try something. It’s frustrating, but also super fun.